okay well today has been exauhsting. I had a ten hour dr appt. Which was crappy. But I survived in my way home I picked up a couple seasons of sex and and the city. Season 3 of the hills and a diet dr pepper. Woo hoo!

Big texted me.I really don’t like it when I try to take my mind off of him but than he just texts me out of the blue. I cannot stand it.

Why can we never get over someone? Why do the people you want to get over have a way of making sure that never happens? It it him that makes the feelings come back? Or is it me that just doesn’t want those feelings to go? I live this boy to no ends, but at the same time I want to stop caring for him so much and move on. Life has a way of messing with you and some times you just need to up with it. Go with the flow. Love who your heart wants. And persue that. You cajnmske feelings go away. And you cant force them. When you find that live for someone dint fight it. Welcome. Love is the best drug in the world. Don’t ever let it pass you by.

well after being up for 20 hours I think I’m going to go fill my lungs with the love of nicotine.
Peace love & extacy!
DASHING