Last night was an odd night.
big asked me if I would come to his work to hang out with him.
My reaction was strictly on impulse. Apparently he wanted me to veiw his tatoo.
Big works at a fitness center not too far from where I reside. So I got ready after about an hour and a half of making him wait I showed up.
he informed me that he was in back (via text). So I walked back to see the guy who stole my heart. The guy I have been trying so desperatly to to get off my mind.
I walked in to the smelly work out area olny to see big working up a sweat. And he looked like a god.
we talked and joked. Laughed about old times, talked about or difficult times.
We discussed our recent activities. And our hope for the future.
I stayed until it was time for him to close and head home.
but before I left big leaned over to me.
and then we kissed
.
long passionate kiss
My knees got weak
the wall behind me was the olny support I had.
our lips met
for the fist time
I was running in pure euphoria:
I fell
I fell so hard for him all over again.
the cobwebs were dusted off the butterflies in my stomach.
I knew I was in trouble.
I left after my time with him with a marlboro light in hand and thoughts racing in my head:
is it fate that now that i want to forget him he’s texting my phone non stop?
Was this just a kiss?
will it devolpe into something else. Something that could ily be described as magical
For the first time I felt that everynight that I stayed up until 11:11 was worth it.
everytime I flipped a cigarette was worth it.
my past three bithday wishes all worth it.
I felt that kiss all night.
After staying up until the sun rised…my body fell asleep
smiling
We kissed and no one can take that away.
